One must turn fear into strength!

For a while now I haven’t been acting on my fair stairway, unknowingly I reverted back into my comfort zone, back into the activities of a mediocre life e.g. a 9-5 job, chores, YouTube, shopping etc.

What woke me up was this video I happened to see on YouTube shorts during my daily scrolls.

Through it I quickly realized that I wasn’t living the life I wanted to live and the only way I am going to live the life I want is by facing my fears. I unknowingly used the everyday activities as an excuse to stay hidden and trapped in this small world I’ve created. Time to once again take a deep breath, have a set intention in my mind and take that turn to face my fears.

I’ll start it of with something relatively simple on my list and that is to catch up with a friend I haven’t spoken to in a long time. It might seem relatively easy and fun but in my mind it’s easier said then done. Have you had that hesitation when you meet someone you haven’t meet in a long time, you wonder if you still have that click or will things just be awkward or it’s been to long won’t it come as shock if I message them all of a sudden? Well that’s what I’m facing, along with this I seem to have created an inferior complex. That once we meet up they will see how behind I am in life and won’t even bother being friends anymore, ruining all the great memories we had as kids.

Isn’t that ironic the end result of my fear is how things are actually like right now. We haven’t spoken in years, they might not even be any memories there. What I actually fear is not the outcome but the stories created in my mind. The only way to overcome that fear is by ending this fictional story in my mind and reading the non fiction book. Time to take action and see how it really ends up. I have nothing to lose right?

Wish me luck, here I go sending that txt message.