My fear of Interviews

I always feared going to interviews. Just the fact of sitting in a small room with a stranger being asked questions about yourself stops me in my tracks.

I noticed that no matter how many interviews I have had I still feared the next one. Soon to realized it wasn’t the interview itself that I feared but the thought of being rejected. The thought of them judging me negatively, and rejecting me only to solidify all the negative thoughts I have about myself. This then takes me no where but down hill as it drops my self-esteem and self belief, keeping me trapped in a bubble.

We all fears rejection in some form in our lives and this is not going to change as it goes against our need to belong. But, with exposure, the intensity and how we view rejection slowly starts to change.

Act

Job interviews are all about this feeling as it’s known that you either get accepted or rejected. I took the gamble, after a while of being out of the interview action, and took the step to apply again. Got invites for a few interviews, each time I went in with the fear bug.

Only at the third interview I felt my thoughts start to slightly change on the matter. As I let my nerves out as usual just before the interview asking my family for help, my brother said one thing to me which stood. ” Hey, Everyone is going to pass away one day, what happens there doesn’t matter”. Instantly all the focus I put on not wanting to get rejected and how terrible it would be if I did lessened. I saw that rejection was not personal and even if it wasn’t it didn’t matter as it is likely I wouldn’t meet them ever again. This life of our is short. so live it how you want.

I went into that interview the most relaxed I was in any of my past interviews despite it being my first time having three people infornt off me. I went in for the experience rather than the finally verdict.